Thursday, January 4, 2018

5 Years

I was having a conversation with an old friend the other day, and we started talking about our school days, days when we were pretty much young and reckless and that's all the responsibility we held. The thing is, when you're young, you look at the world differently. You have nothing that attaches you to where you are, so you look at the world as a vast universe, with the possibility that you can do anything and be whoever you want. I think that's an incredible way (albeit maaaybe a little selfish but still) to look at life. I'm not sure at what point in time you eventually lose this outlook.

5 years ago, I started this blog. It initially started out as a place where I could share my thoughts and ideas. I had no idea where I wanted it go (quite honestly still don't lol), but it was there when I needed it to be. From then until now, a LOT as changed and I have previously mentioned here that a thing I've learned over the years is that the only thing that's constant IS change. It's always there, it's always happening.

It's no secret that as we grow, our priorities change. We're still given those same 24 hours in a day that we were given when we were younger, but why does it feel like so much less? When I look at my blog posts 5 years ago, I remember a person who was so driven, and made time for things she truly enjoyed. And then I got a job, and then I had bills to pay and things to look after. My priorities shifted. I started putting in time to things I thought would help me move forward. I pushed the things that once truly made my life enjoyable off to a corner, telling myself they would always be there when I had "extra time". You know what though? No one is ever guaranteed of any extra time. This IS the time, and it's all we're given. This past year has been such a turning point in my life. I got to experience what it's like to feel at rock bottom. It's never a fun feeling, but it's in these moments where you get a chance to get off your high horse and re-evaluate your life, your choices, and your priorities.

Change may be constant, but at the end of the day, I've also learned how important it is not to lose sight of who you are along the way. I'm grateful to have this space to come back to be reminded of that. Whether you've been a reader of this blog from the beginning or are just stumbling upon it today, thank you. If there's anything I want you to take from all of this, it is to just DO what you makes you the happiest, and please, do it today.